The past consists only in your memory; a persisting version of what had happened that stays with you for the rest of your life. Explanations in your consciousness that fits you. It could have been different but it was not. So make something out of it. This is your job: understanding and fertility. It becomes round in its own way. And yes, it could have been different. But it was not. It makes you. And yes, our mind is constantly bending what has really happened: fit it in; make it round.
-186Death_The casual paste of an event consists of all the events that could have influenced it.aif
When things are not running smoothly and you listen carefully you can hear the scratches in the shadow. Don’t be afraid. Become aware that all this is happening because of the angle in your perspective. It is only your projection upon the things as they are. Adjust to what is there, not what could be. Clear the misunderstandings and everything will be fine.
-276CiCiAnxienty is very much linked to the problem of desire of the other.aif
282CiCiA desire whose horror we fail to recognize.aif
279CiCiAnd that emergence of desire presents the subjects with anxiety that has to be somehow the threshold of anxiety has to be crossed.aif
What happens to us when sleeping is different. Our perception is shut off and everything is coming from within. The images and sounds we are perceiving with our inner eyes and ears follow their own rules. There is no outside, Everything is coming from us. Not inventions but pieces of experiences that have have been recorded into our memory that now are puzzled together again, reflecting the emotional state of the unconscious.
Then we wake up and are not quite sure about what just happened. There is this feeling of a certain something that tells us who we are, what we are too. The one that we don’t know that we know.