there will be a screening with the offline pieces i did during the last year and a live set, the bass / videos / electronics, with new material. still about time, space and identity. i simple cannot let this subject go. there is so much more to find out about …
The Ego and the Self. Not really something what we would call a good relationship. Always in struggle. They will never agree. It’ is their nature. But there is the idea of the ‘what if’ that nurtures the desire. One day the two could become one thing.
Don’t let it bring you down. Enjoy the ride. There is nothing else you can do.
And what about all the lines in between them. Better get them straight.
283CiCiEverything that comes from the ego is a demand. And that the ego as such is incompatible with desire.
-278CiCiAnd there is a kind of threshold of anxiety that has to be crossed for the desire of the subject to emerge.aif
“Nothing is original. Steal from anywhere that resonates with inspiration or fuels your imagination. Devour old films, new films, music, books, paintings, photographs, poems, dreams, random conversations, architecture, bridges, street signs, trees, clouds, bodies of water, light and shadows. Select only things to steal from that speak directly to your soul. If you do this, your work (and theft) will be authentic. Authenticity is invaluable; originality is non-existent. And don’t bother concealing your thievery – celebrate it if you feel like it. In any case, always remember what Jean-Luc Godard said: “It’s not where you take things from – it’s where you take them to.”
Unless you let go of you ego it will never stop. You will always have this critique inside you, your thoughts; your feelings will be molded by en entity you yourself are inventing. And you will never full fill the crazy requests it makes for you: shoulders to the wall.
So better let go. Find out who you really are. Or want to be.
And then go for it. It may not be what you have imagined all the time, but at least it will make you a happier person.
“Video was the most shared, the most democratic art form. … Everybody believed deeply that he had invented feedback. Feedback was invented simultaneousty not by five people, like electricity, but by five thousand.”
The past consists only in your memory; a persisting version of what had happened that stays with you for the rest of your life. Explanations in your consciousness that fits you. It could have been different but it was not. So make something out of it. This is your job: understanding and fertility. It becomes round in its own way. And yes, it could have been different. But it was not. It makes you. And yes, our mind is constantly bending what has really happened: fit it in; make it round.
-186Death_The casual paste of an event consists of all the events that could have influenced it.aif
When things are not running smoothly and you listen carefully you can hear the scratches in the shadow. Don’t be afraid. Become aware that all this is happening because of the angle in your perspective. It is only your projection upon the things as they are. Adjust to what is there, not what could be. Clear the misunderstandings and everything will be fine.
-276CiCiAnxienty is very much linked to the problem of desire of the other.aif
282CiCiA desire whose horror we fail to recognize.aif
279CiCiAnd that emergence of desire presents the subjects with anxiety that has to be somehow the threshold of anxiety has to be crossed.aif
What happens to us when sleeping is different. Our perception is shut off and everything is coming from within. The images and sounds we are perceiving with our inner eyes and ears follow their own rules. There is no outside, Everything is coming from us. Not inventions but pieces of experiences that have have been recorded into our memory that now are puzzled together again, reflecting the emotional state of the unconscious.
Then we wake up and are not quite sure about what just happened. There is this feeling of a certain something that tells us who we are, what we are too. The one that we don’t know that we know.